paliwanagan mo nga ako.

meron bang perpektong tao? pakilala mo nga sa kin.

bakit ba ang hirap magpakatao?

bakit ba mas napapansin mo ang 1 bad deed ko out of 10 good deeds?

pag nakasimangot ako, ibig sabihin masama ang loob ko? o naiinis ako? hindi ba pwedeng nag-iisip lang ako ng malalim at dahil serious ang mukha ako, para akong nakasimangot?

pag nagbigay ka, kailangan bang laging may kapalit?

pag meron kang ibinigay sa kin at tinanggap ko, kailangan bang palaging mag-thank you?

pag hindi ako nag-thank you, ibig sabihin ba nun, ungrateful ako?

pag hindi ako umiimik, ibig sabihin ba naiinis ako? masama ang loob ko?

pag ibinalik ko ang ibinigay mo sa kin, ibig sabihin ba nun mataas ang pride ko?

pag maganda ang pinakikita ko sa iyo, ibig sabihin ba nun nagpapaka-plastic lang ako?

bakit kapag nag-uusap tayo, parang okay naman ang lahat. ako ba ang plastic? o ikaw?

bakit pag nakatalikod ako, iba na ang sinasabi mo?

bakit kailangang sabihin mo sa kanya ang kahinaan ng mga anak mo, imbes na pagtakpan?

bakit yung isang anak mo, lagi mong pinagtatakpan?

mali ba ang ginagawa ko? tina-try ko naman ah.

hindi ako nakikipakumpetensiya sayo.
matagal ko nang alam kung san ako nakalugar.

bakit ako umiiyak habang nagtatayp? masakit ba ang mga daliri ko?

the barber sold me a photograph

kilala nyo ba sila???

eh sila?

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congrats, fafaden. ahm so frawd ovya. (na-promote ang lolo nyo).

anik-anik

i have attempted a lot of times over the past days to update and write a new entry here but to no avail. either something would come up just as i start writing or i'd simply forget what to write about. sometimes, i just can't seem to finish what i've started writing. it seems that everytime i open my blog, i was just happy to see if anyone has posted a comment or dropped a line on my tagboard. but when i see my post of some ten days ago, too old a news already, and no new messages, the urge to write about anything escapes my system and my blog is left untouched.

so my last entry is ten days old. and i'm not updating. but then again, maybe i am.

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it is two days and a month till my wedding day. everything is so far in place except for one major thing: i have not been measured for my dress yet, meaning the bride is going nude on her wedding. NOT. well, i could do that, go nude, i mean. there would be fewer people who would attend our wedding because they wouldn't wanna puke on their lovely clothes (or someone else's) when they see me in my naked glory. the few brave people who would come would be the strong-hearted, or those who wanna laugh their heads off. that could save us a lot of money on the food, less people attending, less mouth to feed at the reception, hehe.

but, heck, no. i'm walking down the aisle fully clothed. for i have a body only someone who really, really, really loves me could stomach. yep, bilbils and all. and that someone is the person i'm meeting at the altar.

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i should have included postage in my invites budget. so far, it has already cost me a quarter of the whole invites cost. it really bothers me that i forgot this one expense because it's not cheap.

anyways, the invites are out, particularly those which have to be sent though snail mail overseas. i included the cd souvenirs with the invites i sent to my sis, daisy, lily, rose, and mye, which cost me a tad more than just sending the invites alone. i couldn't send the cd to the US, UK, and Australia, though. not with the travel advisory going around about sending pirated cds, etc to US soils and taking away the visa of the person you're sending them to. i thought same probably goes with UK and Australia so them there will just have to wait till they can come to the Philippines so i can give them their souvenirs in person.

you're probably thinking why i bother sending these people abroad invites when obviously they won't be able to come. for if they were, then i could just hand them the invites here, right? two things: one, i want them to know they are special and that they are part of my wedding even if they couldn't be here physically. two: when they receive the invite, maybe they'd feel obligated to send us a wedding gift, hehehe. malay natin.

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i finally bought my wedding shoes last tuesday. it is beige and i got it for 20% less than the original price. my sister daisy actually bought me a pair she said she'd want to to wear on my wedding. it was also beige but had only two straps, one crossing over the other, exposing the toes of the person wearing them, meaning me. a really sexy, strappy one with cool heels. but since my feet are not one of my best assets among many, i can't wear them. nanay's feet are smaller and ate des' bigger so they can't wear them either. si mamadigs na lang, we have the same shoe size.

i'll post the pic of my wedding shoes next time.

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eebilboiasteeg is happy. that's why he gave us (me, chienovela, purplegirl) longganisang lucban! yum! thanks, kuya eebil and belated happy birthday!

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speaking of birthdays, happiness to my august-born loved-ones...

adrielle, eebilboiasteeg, ate sherlyn, mitch, thinking aloud, dek, tich, kitchie, hen! may all your wishes come true! but only the good ones, ok?

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and speaking of wishes, i really wish yakult was sold in one liter bottles. thanks for reading. see you next time!

good news! bad news!

good news: paperback writah's first ever gig was a success!!! sa opinion ko...they played three songs and were really good. sayang nga lang the other 2/4 of their band (uncle's army) couldn't be there. pero asteeg pa rin kahit dalawa lang sila ni pez ang tumugtog! asteeeg!!! theto and meg was also there to watch pbw's rise to stardom, hehe.
bad news: purplegirl, chienovela and layabelle couldn't make it. purple got lost, chie had to be yaya, and laya had a church thing.

good news: eebilboiasteeg and atty. made it to the gig! i had to meet them kasi boiasteeg promised to help me with the cd souvenirs to burn. since may gig din si pbw, nanood na rin sila ni atty.
bad news: they had to wait a full hour for me and fafaden dahil late kami. sorry.

good news: fafaden was home the whole weekend! from friday till this very moment dahil mamaya pa sya babalik sa olongapo.
bad news: he had to come home because his aunt dolly died. eldest sis ni papa ben.

good news: fafaden and i were able to do a lot of wedding stuff last weekend! nung saturday, divisoria byutis kami. nabili na namin yung tela para sa blouse ng mga secondary sponsors. tapos, nakabili na rin kami ng mga abaniko without having to go to quiapo. at less than my original budget pa! yey! i brought some ribbons na rin for the cd package and the fans. we had to wake up really early kahit late na kami nakatulog friday night pero sulit naman. happy kami ni fafaden dahil productive ang aming weekend.
bad news: di nya pa rin mapagana yung program ng data transfer thru ir sa pc. tsk. buong sunday morning nya ata tinrobol shoot yun.

good news: chie is done with her share of cd burning! yey!!! and she's asking for more!!!
bad news: wala. :D

good news: fafaden, pbw and i attended kat's wedding (neighbor nila) ninang si mama digs pero dahil wala nga sila (umuwi sa probinsya for the sis' wake), fafaden and i went with pbw.
bad news: walang mic stand sa aristocrat where the reception was held, so hindi nakatuogtog at nakakanta si pbw.

good news: the wedding invites are ready to be picked up!
bad news: mam is back, i can't leave the office early.

good news: patayan kami ni chie sa bad court bukas!
bad news: patayan na!!!

good news: mam is back!!!
bad news: mam is back!!!

gashes. mukhang isang umaatikabong linggo ito! :D